Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I miss my friends...

I miss being around people who really know me; people who've been there through good times and bad. Friends with whom I share common experiences. Here in Chicago I've met some really nice people who are a lot of fun to hang out with, but few really know me. I don't expect or necessarily want a ton of people to know intimate details about my life, but I miss having a strong group of friends who love and understand things about each other.

I have one really good friend here and for that I am extremely grateful. She is in my program with me and is such a fun girl. We help keep each other sane. It's so nice having someone to share this grad school experience with who really gets it. The only other person with whom I've shared intimate details about my life has turned out not to be a very good friend. For whatever reason--I have no idea what--I've been dismissed by him. It really pisses me off and hurts, but I'm not sure how to handle the situation.

I'm going to Utah for Fourth of July. I'm so excited! I miss my college friends so much and the family I have there. Even though it's hard being thousands of miles away, I am still so grateful to have amazing people in my life. Sometimes I just wonder why I moved so far away. But, I'm doing my best to form a life here in Chicago. I know that even though my friends and I don't live in the same state we can still maintain our friendships. I didn't always realize that. I'm grateful for that new knowledge.

July can't come fast enough!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

two years ago today...

Two years ago today I graduated from Utah State University with my bachelor's degree in English. So crazy.

A few days ago my Auntie Jalyne sent me a recording she had me make the day I was honored as the English Department Student of the Year. I was so happy she could come and celebrate that special day with me.

I poo-pooed her when she had me make the recording for posterity's sake, but I'm so glad she did. It's a little gem that captures my true feelings about the amazing experience I had at Utah State.

Once an Aggie, Always Aggie!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

My bro Ted Mosby...

The TV show How I Met Your Mother brings great joy and happiness to my life. My good friends Emilee and Josh had always told me how funny it was but I just hadn't picked it up until a few months ago.

I had recently finished watching the tenth season of Friends and had caught up with both Downton Abbey and Mad Men. I needed a new TV show. Enter HIMYM and the beauty of Netflix. I'm pretty sure I watched all six seasons in less than a month.

All of the characters hold a special place in my heart (yes, even Barney), but the character I identify with most is Ted. Yeah, the title of this post kind of gave it away. I am the female version of Ted. The quote below from the pilot episode sums up who Ted is and what he wants out of life. My feelings are mutual.

Ted: You know what? I'm done being single, I'm not good at it. Look, obviously you can't tell a woman you just met that you love her, but it sucks that you can't. I'll tell you something though, if a woman, not you, just some hypothetical woman, were to bear with me through all this, I think I'd make a damn good husband, because that's the stuff I'd be good at. Stuff like making her laugh and being a good father and walking her five hypothetical dogs. Being a good kisser...

Robin: Everyone thinks they're a good kisser.

Ted: Oh, I've got references...

Ted longs for the day when he will get to be a husband and father. There's nothing I want more out of life than to be a wife and mother. Ted isn't good at being single and neither am I. Unlike a lot of my peers, I want commitment. I'm not afraid of it, I just haven't found it yet. It takes a lot for me to fall but when I do I'm all in. I see the big picture just as much as the right now.

Mosby and I...we see eye to eye. We're totally bros. Even though the series is still going, we know Ted is victorious in the end. I mean the show is called How I Met Your Mother. If Ted can get his happy ending one day there's hope for me too. Love ya bro...keep the hope alive!

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