"Why?" is such a vexing question. Sometimes it takes a long time and significant experience to figure out why we feel or behave a certain way. Not knowing often makes me feel like less of a person or like maybe something is wrong with me.
Sarah reminded me of my personal self-worth with these timely words of wisdom noted above: "Don't feel inadequate just because you can't come up with an adequate explanation for your feelings."
In the same conversation she also said, "I think sometimes Satan's tactic is to make us feel like less of a person because we have emotions that we can't really help or explain sometimes. But really, that's what makes us more powerful than he is."
A lack of knowledge doesn't equate a lack of self worth. We have to live and work through things without all the pieces. Answers don't always come. Who we are right now is just as valuable as who we were before and who we will continue to become.
We progress and change, but our worth as individuals stays the same. It is infinite.